what an FFing day.. the one day i can reach home before sunset and i had to get stuck in the shopping centre in front.. cos i decided it wasnt gonna rain near home and leave the umbrella at home.. freaking pissed off.. so incredibly fed up.. all the little things making my life so awfully miserable .. just go to hell man.. ooh how i hate this.. all i wanted to do was walk in the rain and get struck by lightning.. maybe i was simply too chicken to do it..

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...
After all...

i love stephen dorff, for some strange reason.. just cos he starred in -the power of one- heh..

I just read mayi's blog and i dunno what it was but I instantly missed her so incredibly much.. then i started thinking of all the fun we had.. the hc class.. and wished i cud meet them soon.. so sharon, id most prob come for the concert if i have nothing on tt day.. :) maybe its my own fault for not trying to keep in touch more often but sigh.. i wished i was always nearby like ammily says... so tt we can give each other hugs.. hugs really go a long way.. and sometimes i just need one to make things go away.. sometimes i just need someone.. i guess everyone does huh..

im growing too old and too cynical.. the apparent trait of an rg girl eh.. hope i dont end up as statistics..

the game on sat was not the greatest.. and i feel as if coach is sorely disappointed esp in me.. since he wants me to pitch but im always evading.. well, im not sure anymore if the evasion is deliberate or not.. but i do want to try.. but i want to do it when im pitching well.. or at least i wished my batting didnt deteriorate.. pisses me off man.. oh well im looking forward to saturday.. how dressy issit gonna be anyway? n dawn, i really appreciate you making the food halal.. little things like this go a looongg way.. :)

ay ili stop complaining. !!!

p/s can anyone send me songs? im dying of boredom cos kazaa only has corrupted files..
and sya, the book ure reading sounds good.. care to lend when ure done with it!?

omg why does power 98 play stupid william hung songs? my ears are goneeee.. its so bad i cud cry.. its like having nails on the board.. errrks!!!!!
my ears are still ringing in pain dammit.. stupid radio..

and this whole morning was complete torture.. to think i was actually looking forward to a nice argumentative Q&A session.. what a complete letdown and more.. whats the point of lecturing us on every other nation on this earth and not bother to what our part says..

-cough- im getting my voice back again hurrah.. after eating a snickers bar tho.. ultimate with peanuts and caramel summore.. haha.. hmm being a lazybum again and watched/slacked.. watched sweet home alabama.. ahh im becoming a pure romantic.. -melt- suresure these movies are how dumb but they're feelgood movies for a reason righttt.. better than princess diaries actually.. esp since there arent even good looking pple in the movie.. reese whitherspoon rocks.. i want her hair.. or at least i want to cut my hair to make it more manageable again.. dance nite tom.. i hope itll be comfortable.. rooting for lotsa pple. :D good lucks..

mumble grumble rawr meow woof moof.. sigh... -grunt-

i can but only sigh
attempting to heave the horrid feelings off
will no one ever see me as i am
cos im about to give up
give up..
everything..
uergghhhhhsshhh..

lift me up..

wunnnderrfull

such a happy and hot day!

we won jj 26-2... tho it was the first game tt ive never played in.. freaking hot.. but i seem to be curving the pitch during practise.. ooooooh.. hahahhaha praising myself eesh..

then did lotsa extra things for drama.. ahhhh it was really nice.. everyone was so pretty and dressed up and beeeyouuutifooll. picked up some makeup tips.. :) luffed lots.. smiled lots.. and looking forward to LOTS of things like
1) luffing at pwee
2) post production party
3) dawns bday party
4) farewell (sobs)
5) smacking other skls.. :)

wow.. :)

oh yea met fuzz n nurul n nadyeo ... :D so funky... and i was really happy to have halima accompany me the whole time tankew dear.. and ive got my mld shirt.. finally... sooo loveeellyyy..

u guys rock luv ya lotsss

anyway i have an idea for my bday this yr..
just a survey.. my bday happens to fall on the weekend most probably after rj common test 2, so would everyone agree to celebrate freedom and my bday at ECP then? :) if its invite only then theres gonna be serious gender imbalance.. hehehe..

let me live this high foreveerr

sniffles

the weather is horrible... i can just melt this instance w/o aircon.. i slept so much today.. very happy.. interesting to find out everyone else got a bug & at home and waking up every now and then to check out soccer scores courtesy of dawn.. thankew dear!

peeped in lt2 yest and koped some food while watching the pple get ready.. ooh so pretty.. its amazing how we have so few pple and this is actually working out.. am really proud of them.. :) looking forward to some good acting, pretty costumes, good laughter with friends and hopefully new GGM :) i of cos get to see everyone coming into the LT.. hehehe..

goodluck to everyone! softballers and artsfeste peeps.. :D

thanks for making me hyperventilate
thanks for making me cry and brim with mucus
you're the most inspiring and encouraging teacher in the whole world
most of all thank you so incredibly much for hurting me

that was prob the worst case of asthma ive had and its all thanks to you.. new experiences everyday man..


maybe someone will push me off the edge...

been getting lotsa sleep the past coupla of days and also doing work and managing softball.. yippeee for me

VJ match yest.. i had to pitch.. urrrkkss.. the first inning was nonononon good.. but the following innngs were much better.. only let one run in in the last 2 or 3 innings.. was really happy! with the double play with the 1, 2, 3 out which margaret has ousted dawn out of the cheerleader spot.. heehee.. but can u imagine our potential in one month if nationals was postponed? stupid umpires and stupid officials.. -pouts- never have i wanted the batter to hit the freaking ball so badly as i did yest.. so many of them kept fouling the ball everywhere! it was freaking irritating.. pretty scared cos i wanted her to get over with so tt i wudnt give her a lousy pitch and walk her which wud be an ultimate waste.. the less i thought abt the number of balls i made the better the pitch was.. :) the more times yingmei and coach reminded me to pitch harder the better it was also! thanks guys! but as clarence puts it even tho my pitching pose looks ultra weird, i do compensate it somehow.. hahah.. urh i hate for our matches to be in the middle of the afternoon.. blistering hot sun.. dehydrating like crazy.. cant wait to thrash other skls.. and let them feel the RJ experience! ie: the desert field (where christina + the rest of us shall hit to Msia and never-ending land)

i love our little outing after each game.. makes each game memorable in some way.. went secret recipe and dawns house this time.. incredibly brain draining but heartbreakers shall make its way into one of my fav movies.!! jennifer love hewitt rocks.. man the bimbo movies we watched had more of a plot than stupid lizzie mcguire hehehehe..

ay just watched rugby sevens highlights and NZ lost to france.. NOOOOOO.!!

what a horrible week which is thankfully drawing to a close..

OVER

my life
my grades
any small trace of potential

AHHHHHHHH.. im slacking so much but i realise its completely unconcious cos im so freaking tired and fed up all the time.. :(
i refuse to care abt anything.. im so withdrawn.. so easily irritated & pissed off :s the only time i feel sane is when im crapping with frens esp the softballers.. sigh

SIGH

sigh

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. do u know how many times ive sighed today!?

summary of today

black cloud
bruised cheek
nice crappy afternoon

love my teammates.. you rock