sadness

puteri gunung ledang is SOLDOUT!! serves me right for taking a mth to actually go down to buy. sigh.. so nothing to lighten up the mood when im abt to cry of studying..

sooo.. to make me happier, i went down to zara (haha as if i need a reason to go to zara) and bought me sth.. almost got a dress.. but thot id be better off buying those types from flea markets.. :) urh i just need to start going to them tho hahhaa..

I don't know why i suddenly remembered these lyrics all of a sudden

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble

even though i don't show it doesn't mean i don't long for it
we all hide what we really think and feel
we all try to detach ourselves from the hurt that we feel
well, i do at least.

i know why im dull
it takes too much effort to be happy and high all the time
its stupid to remain an angry little girl
its pointless to be depressed over long periods
theres nothing left to think and feel anymore

Selamat Hari Raya!

I think this is one of the few times i can say that without a shred of cynicism and sianness. The day started out slow but parts of it were pretty meaningful to me. Had some meaningful talks which were inspiring and useful to me. My most happening grandaunt who is prob like 70+ is taking classes 3 or 4 times a week.. and teaches Quran.. learns arab... theres so much more to life than what ive led myself to believe, than what ive let myself live with, and hold too importantly to.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
why must hte most hectic time of the term fall during hari raya!?!?
no time to blog.. must go spring clean.. must mug.. must do project!
so heres life in pictures..













btw pic no. 2 is for frigging TWC proj.. id never thot i use sin rule in real life haha

ILI IS TIRED AND ALVIN IS A SLAVEDRIVER!

ok.. its for the best interests of the project and im lucky enough if he doesnt bitch tt im doing such a pathetic job on the most important part of the project. corp reporting n marketing deadlines are beckoning.. proj grps seeing that im not doing anything.. but i really have no freaking time.. :( screw school.

when i didnt want to see the truth

when all i wanted was to run away

when i felt the school suddenly too busy and too choked up

i found a little pick-me-up

in a book called Life by Edward Monkton.

& another favorite

woots

i have officially conquered 5 chapters of marketing! fabulous! i thought it was going to take the wholee day and eat up into my champs league match at 12 but woohoo i even have 30mins to spare before the most dreadful class of all.. CORP REPORTING!wah super packed week shucks

Today
330-645: Corp Reporting
700-730: Iftar
730-930: TWC Meeting
random mug-kerting
1200-230: Champs League Match

Wed
830-930: Marketing quiz
330-530: Marketing meeting
230-500am: Chelsea v Barcelona

n tt doesnt count qm test on friday morning and the wth business casual sports awards on friday night AFTER softball training.

a good dose of greys anatomy

sigh.
its not a good sign when the first day after term break u get a headache n just want to run away from it all.
gd thing my dramas provide the best way to clear the head.
why cant it be my happiness?
sigh.

some people get all the luck.

n ordinary humans like me. get nothing. are nothing.

wah so penat
an eventful day. with lots of acckk what u mean pple dunno theres marketing meeting?, garrrhhh i hate twc moments.. weee i miss training moments and omg making kuih raya in the middle of the night takes foreverrrrr moments.. :)

but as the last batch of biscuits bake in the oven, yes at 130am im grateful for what i have. :) all i wish for is the sweet moments to last longer..

el-bulli: food to diee for

first heard about the restaurant in one of anthony bourdain's food reviews on Discovery Travel & Living. This place in Barcelona is really one of a kind. They close for half a year to come up with new recipes. Each meal has about 30 courses with some courses only being a mouthful but still a sinful mouthful. They are made with special techniques and the presentation is just fabulous. Of course it must mean it comes with a price. gosh.. i MUST find a sugar daddy when im in barcelona :D ok tt sounded wrong..

sigh.

maybe its just the way ive been brought up but i hate being anywhere other than home when i break fast. i hate how things have changed. how nek is no longer with us and how we made her happy when we bought her favourite food. i hate how other responsibilities take precedence over Ramadhan and Syawal. i hate change. don't tell me to grow up and accept it. I wont. give me back my happiness.

just found my favourite song from back in kindergarten. just goes to show ive been a rocker fan forever..

Untuk Mu Ibu -Exist
Oh! Ibu
Kau disiram bayu pagi
Kehilangan terasa kini
Dan kesepian
Dan aku
Bagai purnama gerhana
Di ibarat lautan kering
Tiada tempat ku layarkan
Hasratku ini
Masih belum sempat
Kubuktikannya kepadamu
Ibu tersayang
Kucurahkan rasa hati
Ku tatapi potret mu berulang kali
Kurenungkan kalimah yang diberi

Tuhan Yang Esa
Ampuni dosa ibu
Tempatkan mereka
Di antara kekasih kekasihMu

Oh! Ibu
Kau kasih sejati
Kutaburkan doa
Untukmu ibu

Ampunilah dosaku
Sejak ku dilahirkan
Hingga akhir hayatmu
Saat ini
Kuteruskan hidup
Tanpa bersamamu ibu

wtf arsenal stop buying midfielders!!!

i swearr.. wenger ONLY buys midfielders.. as if hleb, fabregas, rosicky, baptista, gilberto isnt enough.. he now just bought another brazillian youth, a dutch youth, wassit a spanish youth too? and are reportedly interested in ribery. n apparently the brazillian is another gilberto, the dutch is another persie and the spanish is another fabregas.. whats he trying to do!!???! its like clichy being the cole clone.. i can understand if mebbe there is an injury or someone is underperforming, the same tactic can be used cos uve technically got twice the manpower but a single minded tactic seems too narrow doesnt it? and i cant imagine managing how you're going to introduce so many youths into the team. even walcott isnt a main team fixture yet.

if only i had more of an interest in my studies as i do in sports. fell asleep reading marketing.. so i totally missed out on americas next top model.. woke up promptly as the show ended.. wanted to kick myself.. so substituted it with 2 episodes of greys anatomy.. meredith is how cool.. and the soundtrack too.

broke.. no more shopping for the rest of the year.. sobs..
stupid battery. stupid textbook.

de ja vu!

how do u say tt in espanol? Cos this is the 2nd time miss amalsarah n i wore our espana shirts on the same day w/o planning.. Viva la espana chicas! :)

and it just so happens there is a Discover Europe fair going on in school today.. ah so paiseh go to the Spain booth lol. Alvin ended up chatting with the person at the booth cos my spanish is muy mal in comparison to his haha.

we did it!

SMU SOFTBALL'S FIRST EXCO!

after a year of hard sweat and lots of shit admin, we pulled it off.. we officially have softball in smu! Here's to many years of great fun, tight friendships and sweet success!!

a series of unfortunately silly incidents

started out with my battery.. my sadsad battery
then today got back my marketing quiz.. 12.5 over 15.. ooh not bad.. then glances at answers on the screen.. how come he has 20 answers? oh F*** i left out the last 5 qns!??!?! i remembered thinking tt i had to answer the qns on the paper itself. so smarrrtttt.. gosh i hope its a plus 5 marks instead of a minus 1.25

garh! all my subjects overlap this sem! brainstormed FOREVER last night and this morning for marketing and twc lessons.. n im seeing econs everywhere! and met both profs today to consult their opinion regarding our product and i totally mixed up what they both said! one is supposed to be to market a new product and the other is to make use of current technology onto new applications. so begins the frightening onslaught of project meetings and deadlines

just 1 more lesson left this week before midterm break starts.. semi scared for this sem to end because I don't ever want to have to deviate from Plan A. Plan A.v2 is my saving grace but it depends on the flexibility of this everyday becoming more beaurocratic system. Plan B has more flexibility and less stress i suppose but no never... cannott! i shall not let it lead me to Plan B.

Well, lets take a break and read an ode to summer & the bottom is what i call fake service in sg

OFIM!

heh stole that off emily's blog... doesnt take much to figure what tt is.. esp if i tell u the opp is tgif
OFIM indeedy. took 1 hr to get out of bed and decide whether to go to skl or not
mac u owe me one battery -glares-

shites.. i think im on break mentality a week too early.
been slacking nonstop even till mums bugging me.. but i hate that theres nothing truly substantial to study.. why does it seem everyone else has their head stuck in books? maybe you have to find your own material to study? sigh nooo.. i want to have fun! thank goodness no midterms! :)

need to be filling life with more useful things other than watching dramas and studying..

sports fiesta was pretty fun tho.. and the 2 dinners tt night :) with grumpy ol' jayne.. but we've concluded tt grumpy pple are cool yea? lol