I should really learn how to use adobe fotoshop...

for tt matter. . i shd learn how to install my adobe fotoshop properly hahha
ripped off jayne.. ironic tt ie woes are coupled with pictures of crazy crossdressing weiming.. waffles and lays.. but its probably the shortest amt of time spent for a single presentation tt actually went relatively well.. but tt meant lots of panicking IN class itself before the presentation. but then again.. we have the girl who can sell air what... :)

time to attempt to conquer IE boo...

WHERE IS MY IE TEXTBOOK!?!?!?!??!

shitlah!! this is starting to remind me of last term when i lost my twc text.. problem is.. i CANT PHOTOCOPY THE WHOLE ENTIRE IE TEXT!!!!!!! farkfarkfark.. trying to act mugger n start studying.. but now i lost the book.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkk!!!! this is worst than accidentally sendin your folder into the thrash not being able to retrieve it again.. pls let it resurface pls let it resurface!! i promise to study more iE :(

UPDATE: yvonne found my book!!! i love her forever n ever more!! i promise to be damn pro at at least 2 chapters tomorrow!!! promisee! thankew yvonne n jayne for scouring the whole SOB for me :D

For the girl who is always there for me.

THE HUGEST OF SHOUTOUTS to my dearest galpal DEE2/DIYANAH BAHARUDIN!

because this girl has been there with me on my lowest of lows
because theres no judgment when we decide our own paths
because we'll be happy for each other no matter what
because we'll run right over whenever we need someone
because we don't need big elaborate presents to show how much we care
because we believe that there is something special about each other
just because.
she's fabulous, she's beautiful, she's got an amazing future ahead and she's better than what she thinks she is. Have a fabulous 21st beb! :) *hugs*

whimpers n hides

im too malleable for my own good.
i confess tt if u put me in germany during the war, ill be so easily brainwashed..

totally useless.

thats what i am.

theorist. scratching post. student. multitasker. n add bird saver to the list.

frisky kitty has been going ard nuts.. she's only cute when shes staring at the washing machine go round n round.. not when she's tearing my skin apart or scaring a poor baby bird to death. i hope it doesnt die of trauma or sth.. it cant fly so it kinda hopped all the way from my house to the road outside.. didnt want it to get flattened by any cars.. was holding my breath as 2 cars rolled by.. thank god i finally found it by the side.. quite unnerving to pick up the little birdie when it kept hopping away from me.. with one hand free, had to get a chair to put under the tree to put the poor birdie back into its nest. (i hope its the nest) it didnt move n i hope i didnt just stick it up a tree for it to fall out again..

when you don't have time to check soccernet or your email till like 7pm at night, thats when you know you're really packed. at least i had my retail therapy yesterday :) My super cheerful tee of Pebbles is damn cute and alot of pple commented too, making me v happy haha.. all i need is my own bambam n ill be in flinstones heaven hhaha. speaking of heaven, ZARA SPRING SALE COLLECTION IS OUT!!! i spent a mere 10mins in forever 21 thinking wooh since their online stuff look great, their shop shd have just as good stuff.. boi was i wrong.. but i spent 45mins in zara just trying everything and feeling good with all the warm bright colors ard me.. HAPPINESS i tell u.. MPW script done.. resume done. cover letter 80% done.. all i need to do now is study for IE acks.. mebbe... laterrr... :)

what the hell am i doing?

fscared.
this isnt who i am. who i envision to be.
yet that part is so hazy.
living with the hopes and expectations of perfection.
but knowing i cant last on this path
all i wished is to be free of these chains
& for once taste life.

sometimes getting what you asked for hurts.

like literally.. like who in the world is allergic to garlic bread i ask u! so i woke up with a pain in my tummy n head yest only to proceed to the toilet n vomit. i shd have known better than to eat a loaf of garlic bread. but really.. garlic is practically every single food we eat in sg. how can i be allergic to it? anyway, it seems that because this is supposedly hell week, a silent request actually was heard and granted. the request being 'can we just skip this week?' so at 8am on a tues morning when its supposed to be the first hour of one of those looooooong days, I'm home. painful reason to be home tho and throws my whole week into disarray. blah.. but grateful tt in some way.. hell week has been kinda lightened.

mebbe i can spend more time surfing thru Greece holiday websites.. hee.. didi dear, i realise i only have a week max to extend which is too little to be traipsing ard europe.. sorry!! mebbe u guys shd meet us in greece before heading to italy then :)

sarah: i thot i told u before what i wanna name my kids.. there must be an ilhan n a rafael in there somewhere.. haha but my girls ought to go for BOTH piano and ballet.. piano for intellectual stimulation and ballet to strengthen her bones n muscles.. bois will go for piano/guitar + football trainings of cos..!

gill: my msn is lil347@hotmail.com just tell yr sis to add me.. ermmm.. are u serious abt the loving workload part? lol.. does tt mean i cant tell her abt hell weeks? oh yea, she can ask ching too right.. im sure ching totally loves HER workload hahah.. oops..

can i dream of greece?

ok i concede to lance... thank u for the heads up uve given so far.. im in such an escapist mood i can't focus on any of my work.. just doing research of where to go after BSM :) did some research on Nexos Island in Greece and it does sound good.. i kinda have these image of island being just the beach cos tt was what it was the last time i went to some asian island... bored stiff outta my mind.. i wannna wannna run away from my projectsss!

just a revelation since years yonder, since jayne recently jolted my memory abt how adorable kermit is.. kermit clein is cute! enough to rival the ultimate CK hotness :)