ok this entry is gonna sound paedophilic.. hahah

ahhhh i love those kids to death! i want to take a photo with each and every one of them! ashraf is so adorable.. n did a pretty good job of scoring.. syafiq won triple jump in nationals! hosaimi is the CUTEST roundest little boy i know! u cud just pinch his cheeks forever.. and he catches flyballs nicely! n kaisiang was pitching so nicely! n ruben is so tinily cute! n i kinda miss having tt scrawny little malay boy whom ive forgottten his name yet again! n lester bats so well he shud have had a homerun or 2.. ahhhh i reallllllly want to train them up so tt they'll win!!! i hope the girls are inspired.. im definitely bringing my digicam next time!!

finally met ms chew today.. she revealed tt my name is in the hall under past head prefects.. :D ill go take a picture of tt too even tho theres a spelling error in it.. i pity people who didnt enjoy their pri skl days.. because.. thats where your childhood lies.. and thats where the kid in me will never die.. ure always a kid to the teacher.. and ill always feel like the kid next to them.. and it feels good to just be completely yourself and joke ard.. i have been infected with peterpanitis lately.. to have a great life, i quote from the movie under the tuscan sun, 'never lose your childhood innocence' & peterpan, 'to live, is an awfully big adventure' still.. i never want to grow up..

heh i almost forgot abt monday.. oh well.. no big deal anyway.. the best thing would be for my softball tots to win a match... :) kena thrashing like crap today.. but i still love them because they are my pri skl kids, my beloved alumni and im proud of them.. Li Yan is so cute i cud just pinch her little cheeks.. and Suhartika is completely underrated by mr amran.. n another cutie is Syu'aidah.. n this girl Hazira is so tiny but she's got spunk and bats just as strong! haha.. man.. they all have their own qualities and i wished they had the chance to polish off their talents.. I feel like spurring them on to study hard and send them off to rgs so tt coach can do just so.. :) can i give them tuitioN!!? hehe.. today i scored for the first time.. and it was HORRIBLE.. i missed so manyyy freaking runs.. haha.. who caress... it just goes to show i play more than im on the bench.. :P i hope the boys do better tomorrow.. hehehe.. and if i were 12 yrs old, id know who id pick to crush haha.. none of my tots better read this... :D

eurks.. what i want on monday is to spend time with pple who i love.. and accept ME as who i am.. if not.. id rather be spending my time watching old movies or sleeping.. :) sleeping is never a waste of time.. :)

im incredibly out of sorts..
im still a disgusting emotionally tumbling self finding adolescent..
isnt tt great to usher in the whole last yr of teenagehood.. blah
I feel so dull.. -sigh-

Moving on to a less depressing topic
my softball tots are having games tom n wed.. wouldnt it be wonderful to cause an upset..
ill try to teach them the whole tradition of name announcement n thanking after the game if theres a chance.. then, hopefully they will look more pro than those teams which just learnt the game last yr or before.. the warmup is atrocious tho.. watching them play ard just now made me feel so proud! the girls bat better.. but the boys fielding is better.. the boys catcher is doing a pretty good job too.. ill tell him to spout nonsense when the batter's up later to annoy the batter.. :D itll be nice if i get to coach them for real!

mebbe some pple are just meant to live solitary lives.
it could even be better..
you dont have to care abt other pple
no sense of being judged
no need for socialising and idle chatter
no backstabbing and gossip
no opportunity for malice and hatred..
no sense of expectations

and i guess as much as u love someone
there is no perfect match.
its hard enough to find one tt barely fits..
even friends..

was surfing ard trying to find nice movies to watch.. and i stumbled onto this! ahs the lion king! my all time fav animated film.. I love it so much.. i still remember the lines up till today.. :D albeit embarrassingly admitting it.. it was prob the only thing i was sooo into as a kid tt i wanted practically everything to do with it.. i still own the book with its beautiful illustrations (cant bear to part) and used to own the video (until my sis taped sth over by mistake grrr) i always fast forwarded the intense dying part tho.. too much for a lil kid.. even now i dont think id want to watch tt part.. there are exactly 3 parts of teh video tt i still rem the lines until now! :D there was one when timon started singing

'I can see whats happening. what?
And they dont have a clue. Who?
They'll fall in love and here's the bottom line, our trios down to 2. Oh..
The -sthsthsthtwhich i never really caught beforecos he was mumbling-
There's magic in the air.
And with all this romantic atmosphere,
Disaster's in the air!'
-breaks into 'Can you feel the love tonight' song-

oh shush.. its a happy memory.. the lyrics are so cute..
and my dad used to loveee saying hakuna matata haha.. my sis kept singing the stupid 'ive got a lovely bunch of bananas' song.. :) so fuN! none of the new movies make me tt happy anymore.. princess diaries 2 was close. but tt was a warm fuzzy feeling haha.. watched ella enchanted today.. its not too bad.. expected it to be worst so yea.. ahha..

if anyone's going to the beach on sat.. give me call! i thinkim gonna be there all day.. having a family picnic.. but im kinda sick of ecp.. the place is pretty small n with so many pple there it feels even more claustrophobic.. u cycle a bit and u end up at one end.. bleah.. i hope my nieces will provide some good entertainment.. or i can teach them cards.. :D hehehe.. who am i kidding.. hardlly anyone i know likes to play cards as much as we did in sec 2.. no one loves mahjong enough either.. :(

woohs.. finally had a more or less proper coaching session with the girls today..
boy that was tiring!! n i see how easy it is to get agitated and scream haha.. the fielding part was more or less expected to be urhh.. amateurish but we scored plenty of runs too.. so thats good for them.. everyone got pretty frustrated in the end.. everyone kept changing positions and the rest of them were pretty restless.. but everyone had a chance to play so tts not too bad.. mebbe kids games shud be 1.5hrs long.. 2 hrs felt like eternity.. now tt i managed to spend some time correcting some of their batting.. i can actually feel some potential in them.. :) if i actually get more time to train them.. i think they will actually improve ALOT.. but too bad.. i dont think tts possible.. because i guess pri skls dont exactly believe in alot of trainings.. even the trackers dont even train much these days.. n their camp is only 2 days.. today being the last of it.. n no more bbq.. where has the tradition gone to... :( come to think of it.. training did always end pretty early.. tts why we can play block catching till 1230 n go back for lunch.. :) still.. i did enjoy training from 8am to 4pm with joan once.. ended up with a sore arm the whole week after..

well at least i managed to befriend some of the kids now.. which is great since its easier to control them when u can connect with them n just be their friends.. the boys are so adorable (not in a paedophile way!) and small n pretty nice.. even the potty mouthed one can be nice.. called me super when i carried the bench myself haha.. they were taking forever with the equipment & benches! the quatermistress in me took over hahaha.. most of the girls are really adorable and nice.. but some are so mak nenek!! n only know how to comment.. forever talking.. never listening.. id prob screamed at her the most haha.. its a pretty good effort from them i guess and they performed better than i expected, esp since the skl tt came in 2nd last yr (which is rgps).. altho dying towards the end.. i swear.. playing with the new teams will be a whole comedy of error.. with TONNES of screaming.. haha.. aiya..now i feel like playing.. eh damn i have to figure out how to keep score also.. help!

HELP!

i am officially BORED of being at home.. plsplspls if anyone has any lobang to do anything.. work.. volunteer.. anything!! pls tell me.. ahhhH! im going crazyyy.. ive had enough experience cooking n cleaning already! i know where everything is in the kitchen already! i need to get out of it pronto!

from the wise words of summer.. 'ew'..

one bad thing abt entering an ON skl.. is tt there are many diff types of enthu-ness.. many falling in the 'ew' irritating categories.. :S oh pls i beg tt there are even more sane pple to those weird ones..

n god... have been warned abt lame ccas n orientations.. sigh.. im beginning to be more wary than excited for skl to start now.. :S

i dont know if missing it is a disappointment anymore heh.. but at least ill be in exotic turkey, the land where the east meets west.... :) finally OUT of Asia and Australia! hopefully this will be the first of many great adventures to Europe! Dad wants to go Morocco next n as always my heart is set on Spain.. :) (esp since dad thinks we're gonna start being able to pay for our own holidays once we start working...!)

bleah.. im not slavedriver! in comparison to my mom..

she's all up and running to her old dictatorian-thehousemustbespotless- self.. godddd.. she spent all day CLEANING! and she's supposed to be the one sick! people like her aka cleanfreaks will not rest till everything is in its place.. gleaming in brand new shininess.. when do u FREAKING realise that THAT will never happen!!!!! once u clean sth.. sth else is bound to be dirty.. its an FFFING vicious cycle where the pple themselves have to learn sth called learntolivewithasemi'ifucanevencallitdirty' house.. like just CHILL!!! STOP!! like thats the whole reason u got sick in the first place!!!! seriously.. its like a SIN if the house isnt swept at least once a day.. when people hardly even use the freaking house other than to clean it... grrr..
no wonder no maid was good enough for her.. except for the one who overworked herself into exhaustion...

life is such a pissoffff!

hmm, am i more of a slavedriver than a leader? was wondering after my little coaching thing just now.. some of them are so spiritless that i wonder why they are in the cca in the first place.. why bother having a friendly when ure wasting ure on time? primary skl used to be more fun when i was in it.. but all i have now are 'when i was young' stories.. :( all i wanted was to have some fun.. be ard some kids who are supposed to be full of zest and energy.. n perhaps infect me with their laughter n mischieviousness.. all i ended up was gloom n doom.. sth i can very well find on my own..

well.. im gonna meet someone for a passion for life later.. perhaps she'll infect me.. :) n perhaps cute lifeguard will be there too... :D

just watched Ever After.. awww.. its soo sweeett.. i love Drew Barrymore!! all these feel good movies are so terrific.. one of these days.. I'll sit myself down to watch a whole marathon of them..
I was thinking since im in such a foul anti socialising mood these days id spend my bday doing so.. its called mourning for the final year of our teens..
help me add to the list..
1) how to lose a guy in 10 days
2) Simply Irresistable
3) Never Been Kissed
4)Meet Joe Black
5) Interview with the Vampire
6) It had to be you
7) The Next best thing
8) My Best Friend's Wedding
9) Kate & Leopold
10) Whole series of anything tt dates back to kidhood haha.. ie I love Lucy, The Nanny, Who's the Boss, who knows mebbe even Power Rangers.. Jason the red ranger was pretty cute haha.. n kimberly the pink ranger was hot! hahaha

Movies i shud get ard to watching
1) Matrix trilogy & perhaps the LOTR trilogy
2) Alexander
3) Bad Boys 2
4) Miss Congeniality 2
5) Ocean's Twelve
6) Pearl Harbour
7) My Sassy Girl

hmm.. i'm very anti tom cruise right now.. he's sooo offf.. nicole kidman is so much better off w/o him..

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after lunch at munyuk's aunts restaurant.. the food rocks! as well as the ambience.. it didnt hurt tt there was a cute guy sitting opposite ahhaha..

in some alternate universe.. im powdering brad pitt's face, making sure he doesnt look too fair... :D
it really happened!!!! of coz in tt alternate universe called munyuks dream ahhahaha... if you want details, ask me (or muns)! it includes a whole cast of pple who were in KL haha.. it must be the most hilarious, and best dream ive heard of my whole lifeee.. i would never want to wake up from it!!

anyway.. am back.. photos are taking forever to load on the net so tt one will do for now.. getting tired.. so ill describe the trip another time..

Classics rock!
Just finished watching 2 episodes each of Bewitched & The Nanny.. the very 1st episode of the nanny too! what fun! I can still rem watching silly stuff like I love Lucy, very very silly Batman & Zorro and thrashy Beverly Hills hehe.. there was even sweet valley right? my goodness.. still.. they're great fun to watch.. :) hmm since i dont feel very old i must have been terribly young when i watched those hehehe.. oooh and James Marsden was in the Nanny as the oldest daughter's first boyfriend! He looks exactly the same haha.. you have to watch it! on Hallmark channel 17, 630pm weekdays! hehe

anyways, leaving for KL in 2 days.. i hope i can fit everything in my bag... n munyuk simply rocks! she got us a terrific deal for hotel and she's chauffeuring us almost everywhere.. ! I have a feeling we're bound to meet Singaporean pple we know everywhere tho.. like how i met Aimee at an obscure shopping centre called The Mall a few yrs back.. hehehe..