However, the last few summers I have been convinced that we would buy players, big, important, strapping, handsome, lithe, possibly slightly oiled players. And it hasn't happened. So this summer I'm maintaining we'll buy nobody at all. Not one more player. - Arseblog

HAHA! exact same sentiments :)

has to

- get rid of the "nervous youngster energy" READ: jaynes blog
- stop questioning 'i'm just trying to be nice' phrases (at least with strangers)

No entiendo.

I'm seriously starting to lose faith in Arsenal & Wenger.
He sold off Adebayor, Toure and now Eboue. We ONLY bought Vermaeleen and Nasri is out for 2-3months.
HOW does he expect to compete next season!? The only experience we have is GALLAS, FABREGAS & PERSIE and a have not been playing for like a year Eduardo and ROsicky? what ridiculousness is this?

In comparison, Valencia has been having money problems and they have bought a keeper and are happily keeping Silva & Villa?

I really don't understand.

What do you want to be when u grow up?
I don't know and i don't know how to know, yknow?

- Definitely, Maybe

This show should really come out now, unless it also applies on Sept 17th... deeepreesssing

Freak!

Today, Alonso was at VJC while Torres & Carragher were at Novena..

So near.. yet so farr...

I cant still yet decide if I should go to the Singapore River tomorrow to see them lol

In other footballing news, Adebayor is being a prick as any typical sore EPL player does.. Arseblog does another fine piece about it.

Adebayor goes on to say:

I was in the same position as Cesc. Every summer Barcelona tried to sign him, but the fans never turned on Cesc.

Is he really comparing himself to Cesc? A young man who has been at the club since he was 16, who has represented us brilliantly, and who, despite the vagaries of the Spanish press, about whom we know so much, has categorically denied any stories about him moving back home almost as soon as they emerged.

The reason fans never turned on Cesc is because he never acted like Adebayor.

hear ye hear ye!

'I hope they do it. I have friends there and I hope they do really well – and that they finish above Arsenal.' - (C)ashley Cole wrt Man City breaking into the top 4.


SCREW YOU!

Sometimes when I'm off learning Spanish, I wonder why I'm not as excited about Malay. I think it can be very poetic and captures the emo-nemo-ness of us all pretty well :) Much better than in English at least.

Jika mimpi masa silam bisa kusimpan dalam kaca jadi perhiasan, pasti aku abadikan zaman riang kanak-kanak.

Kejamlah dirimu andai membunuhku dengan kata-kata yang bukan dari hatimu.

Jika patah sayap rajawali, bertongkat jua kanda kemari.

Alexander Hleb is realising the grass is not greener on the other side, crying about how he should never have left Arsenal. The Barcelona bench cushion tester said:

I regret my move from London, but unfortunately nothing can be done about it now. For me, Wenger was like a father. I consider him one of the best managers in the world. For such a boss one wants to die on the pitch.

So despite feeling Wenger was like a father for whom he would die on the pitch, he still agitated for a move last summer. Yet another example of a footballer who follows the money, who believes the bubble of lies created around him by agents and advisors who care not one jot for his football career, only how much money they can make from him. He's made his bed, time for him lie in it without bleating like a baby. Suck it up, twat.

- Arseblog

wtf hleb!

The Royal Copenhagen Tea Lounge

wee! Had afternoon tea with Huifang and Dee. Reminded me alot of Liberty in London with Chris and my track seniors. :) We had scones which were decent considering how rare it is to get good scones in singapore, 'open faced' sandwiches which is apparently sandwiches without the bread.. but they were yummy yummy!!! and 2 pieces of cake which were also goood! The cakes cud be ordered separately at a price of 5.50 each which is actually quite worth it since cake shops like Canele and Bakerzinn tend to charge alot more than that. Yay to a nice place that comes closest to afternoon tea in London ~ even Huifang was missing it!

"i bought 3 rolls of digestive biscuits for 50 euro cents! score!"

hahahaha omg. that's how I only ended up spending so little in 6months. they were still yummy! so much so tine ate them all up! :)

Was deleting emails in my yahoo account and I'm always careful not to delete anything thats related to my exchange experience. Ended up opening a couple of the mails that I kept between projectmates, with mom and booking alerts. Reminds me of all the silly things I did. SO fUN! Like copying the html source code and pasting/modifying it onto ours and scoring the besttt mark. Blatantly manipulating my balance sheet because I've always been god awful at accounting. Writing the essay on Finland/Sg/Spain Education system and finally ending up 2nd top scorer in the subject ONLY because I was too lazy to attend the last practicum & had a mark deducted for the absence. But I'm actually really sad I cannot remember what I learnt, especially in computer science class! boo :( i used to know what is meant by wordlength, IP, DNS but not anymore.. shucks!

I think I have commitment phobia.

oh me oh my. hmms and I thought I was a loyalist.

When the thought of the POSSIBILITY of work everyday appears, suddenly hey, what happened to the carefree days? what about what I want to do? What DO I want to do? rar rar rar

estoy muy cansada ahora y quiero dormir. Llevia desde mi casa a las 9 de la manana y solo volver por las 10 de la noche. Pero ya he attendido clase de espanol nivel intermedio bajo 2 y recuerdo ahora que grammatica es mas dificil por mi. no puedo dicho en espanol que ya me acabo estudiar y estoy buscando por la trabajar. la horror! (horror really is the word in spanish too!)

vale, debo practico que aprender ahora - preterito imperfecto
(nunca) he/has/ha/hemos/hais/han - precipio!\

beh. muymuymuymuy odio cuando no puedo entender la profesora!

So I have commenced my life. I really did hope that the speeches at commencement were more uplifting and candid but all of them couldn't compare to last years speech made by adrian tan at NTU's marcoms convocation. Because this is the period of endings and startings, you tend to hear or pick up on the advice of being yourself, doing what you love a whole lot more. But in reality, its so much more difficult to carry it out.....I hope one day, I can be the one dispensing that advice after I've succeeded at it myself. But for now...

Holly: All I know is, if you don't figure out this something, you'll just stay ordinary, and it doesn't matter if its a work of art or a taco, or a pair of socks! Just create something... new, and there it is, and its you, out in the world, out side of you and you can look at it, or hear it, or read it, or feel it... and you know a little more about... you. A little bit more than anyone else does... Does that make any sense at all?
Gerry: Yea.. It sounds like you want to paint socks
Holly: Maybe!
--PS I love you

I'm here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy. After all, it's calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free. The most important is this: do not work. Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

(this was my favorite quote because I actually was in Aucshwitz a couple of mths just before I read the speech and saw the sign)

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan "Arbeit macht frei" was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don't, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don't work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

-- NTU Convo Speech 2008

Color me Katie's most important rules to live by:
1. Be Creative
2. Don't Grow Up
3. Break your routine
4. Be optimistic
5. Give yourself a gift everyday
6. Be yourself

& PS I love you's soundtrack: I love you till the end..

M: I've got nothing. nobody wants me. nobody's calling. I wanted it so much and I worked so hard
B: You would. They should know that.
M: You're right. if they are going to reject me, then they have to tell me why.

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B: what we had was amazing and exciting probably because you were my first love probably because it felt so impossible

H: I don't know if I'm going to ever feel this way about anyone else
B: me neither
H: so what do we do
B: well, i guess i just have to accept that i am always going to be a little bit in love with u. thats ok. as long as it doesn't stop us from moving on.

H: so this is goodbye again?
B: I guess so.

ahhhH!!!!!

VALENCIA CF v ARSENAL
SATURDAY 8TH AUGUST 2009
Mestalla Stadium, Valencia
Kick-off: TBC

Yay finally managed to upload pictures :)
Starting from Top Left
Lau Pa Sat Satay Dinner with Keppelites sans Sil / Full Keppelites Supper @ Jln Kayu where Sil & Dza bought my favoritest Choc Cake from Rive Gauche / 412 gals fooling around @ Upper Pierce Resevoir after Birthday B'fast at Casuarina

Posing with Christina, the other birthday Keppelite with our yummy cake / Greeting Area of Filza's Wedding (love the font!) / Posing with the bride & groom & other JC-mates / Posing at sunset with floorball kakis after floorball at Punggol Jetty

& that sums up a pretty good week despite being rather grumpy often

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But I had a great birthday, funnily enough, among most of friends through life. sec sch-jc-uni. wow even in the right order. it wasnt even really planned.. all sort of happened. so much for wnating to be a hermit.

But when the fun subsides and reality strikes, I'm back to square one. But hopefully, the fun gives a new lease on life. a new hope and strength.

Today,
I feel like being a hermit forever.
wee.